Wow, I haven't posted her since February 10. My blog seems
to be dying almost in spite of myself. Well maybe that's because not a lot of
interest has happened to me. However, I did have a dream experience last night
that might be worth sharing.
Many who visit here know that I have very vivid dreams and
have written a lot of stories from those. However, I also occasionally
experience sleep paralysis. For those who don't know, sleep paralysis involves
waking up from sleep but remaining paralyzed from the neck down. The paralysis
is temporary but can be disturbing. Sometimes, sleep paralysis is accompanied
by vivid dream-like experiences that indicate a state that mixes waking and
dreaming. I've had both types, the paralysis only, and the mixed state. Last night's
experience was rather interesting, and scary.
I woke up, or thought I did, with a leg pushed up against my
back. I knew Lana was in the other room and tried to call out but couldn't. I
reached behind me to touch the leg and realized it was too small to be Lana's.
It was a child sized leg. And it seemed to be growing out of me at the base of
my spine.
I got a chill over my whole body and squeezed the leg hard.
As soon as I did so, a child's arm popped out of my shoulder. But it was like a
ghost arm. I could see through it. I realized at this point that it was sleep
paralysis. Normally when I realize that I try to relax, which is the best way
to make it dissipate. However, I was still freaked out enough to struggle. I
tried to sit up and managed to do so, then woke up completely to find myself
still lying on my side. I went and told Lana about the experience, then fell
back to sleep pretty easily.
About all I can imagine from this experience is that it was
my "inner child" trying to get out. Maybe he just didn't want to go
to work today.
